craPPy friEND
you suck at being a friend. you're like the worst friend ever even. i mean u have to tell ur girlfriend to ask me if u could stay with me... how lame. i mean you could call me urself. shit u even told me you'd be in town wed and surprise surprise ur still with the girlfriend with her eventho u've been with her for like a week and a half already but wutev. you just fuckin' suck and im glad im workin nights so you cant stay with me. i didnt want u to anywayz. u'd prolly only stay b.c u feel obligated anywayz. mainly b.c u didnt say goodbye when u moved a couple weeks ago. i mean u might want to but prolly b.c its be so unkewl if you didnt. ur such a jerk it makes me sick to my stomach. u put ur girlfriend ahead of everyone else and when it comes down to it, u forget about the rest of us--mainly me. then when u hear from her that i may be busy (b.c u dont call urself to let me know whats going on), you make it sound like u want to stay with me... but of course it would've been only for one night b.c im not good enuf but only for that. way to do it in front of her too to make it sound like u care. i mean im her best friend so why not try to score some brownie points u fucker! dont expect me to hang out with u when u get here. u wont be here that long anywayz b.c u chose to stay with her even longer because u truly are one pathetic sick fuck. friends first but not in ur book and i sooo dont appreciate that. i call her last nite but only b.c ur still there. yah, i feel special. i lost two friends b.c of u. and im 2nd in both ur books if even that high up on the scale. i dont need any pity invites or calls or "i want to stay with u for a night when im in town" crap. thats bs and i dont want any of it. ur a crappy friend who cant keep in touch and u took my bestfriend away b.c she forgets me when ur there even tho she wont say it. i hate both of u. im alone and by myself once again to fend against the world and to survive. i have no one. i thought i had at least one person for a while until u came in the picture. ur a shitty friend and i dont want nothing to do with you. just send me a wedding invitation and maybe i'll show up. and hopefully that'll be the only time i see u again. u suck at life and are a shitty titty friend. bah to u. i hope u break up and realize u have no one b.c u ditched them all for her. when u say jump, dont expect me to say how high which is how u were playin the game. those arent the rulez in my world, in my life, and in my game. u abide by my rules. dont go making ur own u bastard two-faced piece of shit who i dont want anything to do with. weddin' invite and i'll be content. last and only time i'll see u again--hopefully...
2 gooD
ur tooooo goood for him. u deserve sooooooo much better, no joke. now he's a great guy, dont get me wrong. i mean he's super great for you and puts you on a pedastle (sp). he calls u and talks with you and really cares about you. he thinks of u often and actually does luv u. but he's just not as good as you could do. but maybe its because you're the best person i know and only deserve the best.. the very best. you truly are remarkably amazing and he's just okay. i think i mainly think this because youre my best friend and i adore you. but also because i think i hate him. he's an asshole to me and treats me like shit if he treats me to anything at all. he forgets me so basically his friends mean squat. he puts you first (which he definitely should) but his friends turned invisible with him. nuh-uh not kewl. so he pisses me off and of course i want u to be with someone i like and dont hate most of the time. but overall u deserve sooo much better because you are the best. he's bronze (if that--maybe nickle or steel) and you deserve the best gold, at the very least, that the world has to offer. i just want whats best for you though. if its him, then so be it. there may not be anyone better. he's a great guy but you're way better. luv ya nd if it works out, all the power to you two but if it doesnt, look for someone way better. look for the best!!!
doesnt both me none
ever since graduation, we havent really talked much. not at all really. i mean i had finals week and shit and then u went on ur trip. it happens, but im not gonna lie, im not too torn about it. its actually kinda nice not to "hafta" do something every day. i mean i luv talking to u everyday but it does get to be a hassle sometimes. i mean some dayz im just soo tired and exhausted i dont wanna talk and thats when i feel obligated to call... but it doesnt help either that when u were with him on ur vacation or w/e i sooo didnt want to talk to u. not only b.c i didnt want to interupt anything but also u called late anyway and we always doin shit. so no i totally dont wanna converse with you when ur done having a blast and feel the need to call. no. just dont bother. u were having fun, dont let me ruin it. u only called b.c we talk everyday but u didnt want to. i know u didnt. shit i wouldnt have wanted to. i dont need ur pity. and i dont need u to rub it in my face eventho i know u werent doing it on purpose. u have a boyfriend. i dont. u were traveling to places down south--which i have never been. you were having fun. i was working. u were with the man u luv. i was working (60 hrs mind u). so just dont bother with me. u dont need me. u and him will be together for the rest of ur life. i just know it. ur perfect together. blah blah blah, dont boggle down with lil old friend me back here in this hole of a town. just forget me. i just bring rain on ur parade. and i especially didnt want to talk to u when u called on his phone b.c ur phone wasnt working or had bad reception or wutev. i didnt want to answer eventho i knew it was u. then when i called to talk to u on his phone, u didnt even talk to me. he talked. WTF?! i didnt want to talk to him. hell no. what a jerkoff. so that made me mad. i just heard a hello from u and thats it and just him blab. gawd. it just maybe better off if we dont talk everyday. no joke. and of course u call me and say something heart warming when he's sleeping. gee thanx. 2nd in line again. kewl kewl. i know i wouldve done the same thing b.c u were busy when he was up and doing things with ya. but its a slap in the face still. and of course when he leaves u'll wanna talk. well no. maybe i'll pass. i can have friends too. maybe not a boyfriend like u, but my friends are special/important too. this trip pissed me off like no other. i dont even want to think about it. vomit... *spew*
u thought wrong
u expect me to drop my life for u when u come to town huh? well i'll show u b.c u totally have another thing coming. maybe that'll teach u. next time say goodbye b.c when u come back around, i may be tooooo busy for u. u THOUGHT i wouldnt be boggled down with life, but i am. u got a nice reality check huh when u found out im working back at that sweat shop huh? that i just may be busy during the time ur here... goooood. because u need to learn that u cant always get what u want and it seems like u have so far which upsets me. thats not kewl. im gonna try to stay busy just to teach u a lesson--to show u that ur not #1 in my book like most pppl. ur not god and i see that like white on rice. i work. i work out. i have other friends. i have shit to do. maybe there's not time for u. maybe i wont let u stay with me. haha good. i didnt really want u here anywayz. ur not my boyfriends, otherwise we could have some fun, but ur taken. u can stay with psycho and she can be all over u. what a hoe! or u can stay with your other friend. dont expect me to be at ur beck n call. im starting to get my own routine which does not involve u. dont expect me to change it for a week just to wait and see if ull call me to hang out. oooh gooodie. yah, no! u let me know when u want to stay here and maybe i'll think about it. i wont answer my phone right away. leave me a message and ask, otherwise fend for uself. it'll do ya some good considering u made me feel like im one of three who offered a place for u. well u have 2 other options, so count this one out. dont think ur that kewl buddy. dont think ur special b.c ur not. im glad u moved. get the fuck away. u came in and changed my life and probably not for the better. ur such a panzy ass mofo its sick. if it werent for ur girlfriend i prolly would never hear from u again besides what psycho tells me but u suck at keeping in touch with friends so it wouldnt be that much. u 2 should break up just so u can leave my life for good... good riddence. but u make her happy so i guess it'll hafta do. but shit, u suck. ur a horrible friend. u owe me money. u suck at life. ur such a pussy too. u suck and i hate u. im gonna luv it when ur hear so it'll give me some ample time to ignore u and let u know that ur not my life like some ppl i know. dont expect much from me. u should count ur lucky stars to hang with me while ur in town. dont think that i should be the lucky one b.c u'll just be a pain in my ass even more than u r. i wont be waiting by my phone either til u call. ur not important in my life. u say i am in urs but i totally dont believe it. u lie. i dont give u head so im not good enuf. im not the girlfriend so i dont fuckin care. just come and go, thanx. hopefully u wont stay here. i mean u do have other offers which u soooo kindly pointed out. well stay with them and dont be a burden the week ur here. i need to work and make money (not that u would know anything bout that). i need sleep too. so that comes first not u. u will never come first. u treat me like shit, i'll treat u like shit and we'll call it even. maybe....
how can she be soooo idiotic??? she's dumber than a box of rox no joke and i cannot believe i am related. its soo f*in' embarassing. she moves out--suh-weet. she made her partment into a landfill so surprise surprise when she gets evicted. evicted because who knows why??? b.c it was disgusting out there. no wonder why i never went out there but maybe b.c she was living well beyond her means. she prolly couldnt pay her rent. i mean it mustve been hard when she had rent and all that to pay for along with 6 FUCKING garages!!! throw some shit away you fucking OCD freak! youre soooo pathetic it makes me wanna cry. im embarassed she's my mother. i dont even want to write that. i wish i could take it back. i wish i was never born just so i wont hafta be her daughter. now she lives with my and my bro illegally and has destroyed our home too to push us out of it. its not ours anymore. her shit has affected it all. its gross there too. it doesnt even feel like my home anymore b.c psycho mom is there with all her shit that should be thrown away. she keeps it b.c gawd knows when she'll need it later. heaven forbid to throw anything out. that just might be a waste. but then again, i never got evicted either, so what do i know! seriously. my bizzle. her mind doesnt work like urs or ours... fuck it fucking should. its soooooo frustrating. now her shit is all up in my room. no wonder why i moved out. i dont even want to be near there. its not my home anymore. i dont have a home. i have a little cubical in a place where technically im not suppposed to be. im supposed to be where i dont want to be and i am where im not supposed to be. well.... life's just grand isnt it???? damn i just want to hate her for her actions and making my life hell and embarassing. she has no teeth. no car. barely a job. shes a worthless piece of shit that if she died it would make my life soooo much better. she's too fat to be on my shoulders anymore. i dropped her a long as time ago. i shouldnt have to open my room, my apartment, b.c she sux at life. i shouldnt have to pay $350 a month for my car for her to drive it b.c she cannot manage money and she blames it on she was never taught. well u know the fuck what??? theres shit that i was never taught either but i figured it out or i asked someone for help. just ask for help u lame ass waste of oxygen that im embarassed to be related to! figure it out. life--its not to be taken lightly. get a new job. stay the fuck away from my car. and get ur own f*bomb place. leave my life and get ur own! ps--get some friends b.c i hate to drag u everywhere. im growing up and away from u. dont expect to follow. ur not my shadow. not no more b.c im threw with you and dont hafta take u with me everywhere. plus u dont fit in my purse....
thiRd wHeel uNnoTiceD
BIG PROBLEM: im in luv with her yet so is he, but yet i want to be with him too. i couldve had him - which kills along with not EVER being able to be with her!
when i feel like i should HATE you with everything i have, you give me an ecuse not too. GAWD!!!
caN i plzz
can i just get trashed, stone, and have SEXXX with some hottie already?????? seriously! that sounds so fuckin' awesome right now. pass the weed, the booze, and hand over the hottie who's ready to "tango" among OTHER things if u know what i mean. lets explore.. oh yah! lets rob a bank while we're at it. go streaking and just break the law left and right until i feel better and have tons and tons of fun! lets kick it my style already... dang!
iGnore
would i be a big bitch if i kept ignoring their phone calls or made some excuse not to talk or hang out??? do i hafta talk with them very long? i dont want to. they're pisses me off mucho lately. they are either in their own little bubble aka in a better world with me and/or they're too good for me and i dont want to hang with them anywayz. i just dont want to associate with them. i can make excuses for me rite? just because i havent done so in the past doesnt me anything right? im too tired to talk. im not feeling well. im gonna call it a night already. i have to work early tomorrow. i already have plans. im busy. im going to the Y. im haning out with my mom tonite. im going out of town. im on the other line. etc etc etc. i totally could make this work.... lets give it a shot. i'll call THEM when im not "busy"... i just dont feel like pretending with them anymore. it blowz ass weeds....
greeN with eNvy
i totally wish i was here. she has it all really or at least all that i want. yet when i tell her she says dont say it. shouldnt it be a compliment. damn she's lucky. she's had some ruff RUFF patches in her life, but look at her now. thats what i want. damn it. she sux! can i be her? at least for a day or two? maybe forever?
me, mYself, and eye
being alone f*bomb sux! i hate it. i wish it wasnt like this.....
boTherSome
thats pretty much what i am--a bothersome. welll sorry! i dont mean to be an inconvenience and be a waste of ur time. you dont have to call me if ur busy. i dont care. ur with ur man, so dont mind me any. i know ur having like the best time of ur life right now, so dont feel like you HAVE to call me. dont worry bout it. we can break our talking everyday. thats totally kewl with me. i'd actually like it that way we'll just talk when we want to not b.c we're obligated to do so. i mean shit, u wake up and call me when u didnt think about it all day. yah i feel the luv hence why i didnt even answer. forget u. i dont need this shit. u say that he's not above me or wutev but in actuality he realy is b.c he does what i do plus a whole ton more. well sorry i am not a dude and cannot be with u like that. my bizzle. forgive me puh-lease. just dont call anymore. it'll be better for u especially when ur on vacation or watever u wanna call it. dont boggle down time to sit and chit chat with lil ol me. lame. i know i wouldnt want to call and chat when im having a gay ol time. dont give me a pity call. just dont call at all especially on his phone. he can just get hit by a bus along with you. i dont need u. i dont need either of u. fuck, i dont need anyone. i have gotten this far without anyone so i can deal now without anyone. its not like ya all really care anywayz. ive realized lately once again i cannot count on anyone. i just get screwed over. and when i need someone to talk to, nobody is there. u werent there when i wanted to talk. u were busy. thats totally fine. but it still hurts b.c u have somebody to be busy with and i know ur not doing it on purpose but everytime u mention his name i feel like ur rubbing it in my face that i have no one. yah that makes me feel special. i hate u right now. u call me and bad reception so i just hear like one word then u text me about callin me the next day. well thanx for trying later or using his phone then. 2 sec is i guess all im worth. and last nite u call at like 1am b.c u were sleeping with him. well u actually were sleeping but u were too busy earlier to call me so dont even try later on just so u can say u did try. admit it. u forgot to call me b.c u were having sooooo much fun with that pussy u call a boyfriend. yah i hate him. now im hating u too for forgetting me. thats what happened. and it sux b.c i wouldve forgotten me too but it makes it worse when u do it when everyone else is too. die bitches. i dont need u and i dont need this shit. rot in hell and leave me the fuck alone. sad thing is i'll try to forget this all happened and be all fine and dandy like cotton candy. but maybe i'll be too busy and we'll forget out everyday talks. they're a waste of time and minute anywayz. throw it out the window. maybe that'll make u think twice. i just want to be important to someone. not a bothersome inconvenient! sorry everyone for sucking at life. i'l just stick to myself this summer and do things for me b.c noone else is. have fun for me and do what i want. sounds gravy baby! gawd if i were anyone but him.... there's just something about him that makes me want to punch him in the face all the time!! he just a jerkface booger head that should cry like baby to his mama!
neXt wEEkEnd
score!!! i just got called into work this weekend and most likely next weekend too! do u have any idea what this means???? this means that i'll be a busy beaver and prolly wont have time to hang out really when a certain "friend" of mind comes into town! oh shuckie darn. im heart broken. hahah yah right. this rox da house homz. now maybe he'll learn to say goodbye the first time that big ass jerk! maybe he'll realize that when he's in town, the whole planet doesnt just drop everything for him. he really needs to learn that the whole fuckin' world doesnt revolve around him. im really starting to hate this kid no joke. i think ive always hated him. i just feel like he treats me like shit all the f*bomb time. and yah, i sooo totally do not appreciate that. he can hang out with his ex who's obsessed bout him. all he needs is her and his current girlfriend. he'll be very content that way. well actually he'd be perfectly hunky doory with just the girlfriend. as long as she's in the picture he might as well forget the rest of us. eitherway, there's no room for me. *tear* or Not and say we never did. bastard should get what he deserves! i dont think he can stay w. me and im pretty sure she'll have a hissy fit about staying w. her and her mom so im not sure what he's gonna do. im sure our other friend would put him up but i doubt he'd call him. he never calls anyone but his girlfriend... soo hmmm. that should be interesting. oh well, aint my prob bob. sucker!!! hope he gets a nice reality check that punk!
mY futUre
i dont really think i'll have a future. ive im lucky i'll die tomorrow and never have to live another day again. but im sure i wont be so this is what i am predicting for future days of my pathetic life: life alone with 248703284 cats with "friends" who call me when its convenient for them aka meaning when everyone else is busy and they're "bored" or wutev or want something from me. everyone will be all married and shit with cute babies and families all around. then there will be sad me and i'll just get pity invites from them for holidays. my family is not big so i cannot depend on them always and i dont want to. they'll be doing their own thang. so i guess a nice tv dinner will do on x-mas and turkey day. cannot wait... woot! i dont want to be all alone and lonely but no joke, thats whats going to happen. i hyped my life up and now im on the downfall and reality of how shitty titty my life actually is. so cats, workaholid, along, sad, apartment = me. future here i come... damnit! kill me now, PLEASE!!
ps--i dont want pity either; i'd rather live this "life" than have pity invites left and right. im not that desperate. im just calling it like i see it!
naiL
havent been having the best week, and there u be, nailing another nail into my coffin. thanx bud. thanx for nothing...
whaT a biTch
so at first i thought i was second best to her ex boyfriend who she is still madly in luv w. nobody what she says or tells anybody even herself. but i guess im not even 2nd in line--im like last (resort). oh man she is just a self-centered bitch. if u know who isnt available she'll call me usually but not the last couple days so i thought she died but as it turns out drinking of course is way kewler thang haning out with me and of course w. different ppl and a boy who im sure she's trying to get her mack on. bah! so not kewl. i mean im friends w. those ppl too but do u think she thought about calling me???? NOOO!!! of course not. why would she want to let anyone in on the fun? especially me who is "supposed" to be one of her good friends. but when it comes to guys/flirting/drinking im last in line. then last nite when i thought a couple of us were haning out, she never called which was fine bc that sooo gets old, but she's hanging out w. some of our mutual friends again. well thanx bitch hoe dike for calling me up. as it turns out i was hanging out w. a friend and they met there so the coincidence was weird but go figure she didnt call me agian. see if i call her this summer but i bet if all her "kewl" friends are busy my celly will be ringing. maybe i just wont answer. i sooo totally have friends that she's not friends with that im going to hang out with. in spite but of course b.c i luv my other friends too. damn i seriously hate her soo much. she's a manipulating bitch whore but nobody knows it but her true friends but of course when u first meet her she's just awesome possum. well let me just vomit right now!! i know her game and it sux that nobody but a couple other ppl do and those ppl dont even live here anymore. gawd i hope she gets hit by a f*bomb bus b.c she sooo stupid and is only out for herself. *pushes ignore bitch for summer button* *then pushes have a bitchin' awesome summer without her and go out of ur way to rub it in her face b.c she deserves it button*
useD to B
back in the day it used to be soo much better than this. now its just shit and a half. i want it to go back to how it was and used to be. i fuckin' hate it the way it is now. things have changed so much and i dont like it. obstacles have come and we're still trying to hurdle over them. damn speed bumps, one in particular!! die and go to hell!!!
gooD riDDiencE
what a fuckin' faggot! i knew that it was gonna happen that way, but i was just crossing my fingers that it would be different this time. i was just fooling myself... what the hell was i thinking, seriously. he is moving for good good. who knows when he'll be back. he says he will come back to visit in a couple weeks, but who knows what i'll be doing. maybe i'll have a life that weekend and will be gone. he just expects me to be here waiting for him. the least he could have done was call me to tell me he's finally packed up and ready to take off. that wouldnt have been so hard now would it? no, but of course it is. he's a boy and he has trouble keeping in contact with ppl, well u know what? maybe i dont want to keep in contact with him. im better than that. i think if we were fairly good friends he wouldve called to say by or stopped on by for a quick hug or something since he's moving like 3 states away. wutuv. what a jerk!! he is and always will be. see ya lata punk! have a good life. dont expect me to write. call me, but i'll try not to answer. maybe i'll make plans the weekend ur coming back up here. i dont feel like hanging out with you anywayz. i dont need this shit. good bye good riddence. take care! thanx 4 nothing. i just thought i meant more to u than that... if i were u know who i would've gotten a goodbye but im not so i guess im just not good enuf. surprise surprise. road trip ina couple weekends i guess... sweet.
geT a Life
omg she's driving me insane... does she talk about anything else????? i dont think she knows anything us but this!! i just want to fuckin punch her in the face, ugly face she has. omg i send her my pity along with a giant kick in the ass. she so pathetically sad and really needs therapy. no joke. plus her attitude on issues put a good mood into a bad one. does she f*bomb realize this? omg her ora is affecting all around her, i dont even want to be around her b.c she negative about things and/or obsessed with a topic semi related. there's just no way around it!!! can she just get hit by a bus please? shoot her now, something, plz just help her b.c its fuckin' annoying as hell! i dont even wanna hang out with her half the time. there's nobody else to so why the heck no right?
